august.

Its August?!? I know this is a total “old lady” thing to say, but…where did the time go?

I have to admit as I was flipping my calendar to this month, I got a little emotional (shocking right?).  I just realized that next month, Penny is coming.  Which started out as a super exciting thought.  YES!  We totally get to meet her SO soon!  And then it hit me…

This is the last month where we will just be “Brett and Katie”.  As excited as I am for our little girl to get her butt here, a part of me is a wee bit sad that I have to share Brett with her.  One of the things we talked about a lot pre “we could totally do this baby thing” was how selfish we are with each other.  This is real you guys…I reeeeeally like my husband.  I’d pretty much choose snuggling on the couch with him over anything.  He’s my favorite person in the whole world and i really love loving him.  This little third wheel is gonna come in here and turn our lives all sorts of upside down.

i know things are going to change a bunch soon, but its a huge prayer of mine that we will find some ways to preserve the “us” that we love so much.  i don’t want this to sound like I’m dreading having penny around. I’m not.  I’m actually super anxious to meet her, and i look at my little desk calendar like a clock, like its going to change through the day and I’ll be one step closer to holdin her squishy buns.  plus!  i am so excited to see Brett as a father and i know that watching him with her is going to make me fall in love with him in a new way.  I just want to take this last month to kind of focus on the two of us, and make sure that we appreciate this time together.

flipping that calendar over this morning made me sit back and thing about how much that husband of mine means to me.  im so thankful for him, and for the time that we have had, just me and him.  and im looking forward to the days of me, him, and penny.  we have no idea what we’re doing.  but im sure its going to be awesome, and no doubt hilarious at times.

cheers to next chapters, theres no one else id rather walk through this with.  love you senor brettles.  your the bestest.