day 1

Today I started eating healthy…again.  WOMP WOMP.  This fitness journey of mine is coming up on a year and will most likely continue…fooorrrrever.

That really is the whole point right?  To live healthy?  Sometimes I’m pretty blinded by the word “skinny”.  That’s an understatement.  I’m pretty obsessed with the word “skinny”.  I’m working on it.  Along with my journey to physical health I thought it was time for some serious spiritual health as well.  I don’t talk about it often on the blog, but to those who know me personally they know that I’m one of those Jesus lovers.  It’s actually a pretty big part of my life…or well…it used to be.  I hate to blame it on Penny, because that’s not very fair.  Through pregnancy and well into mother hood, Ive sort of lost myself.  The physical changes are obvious, but the heart is a little bit more sneaky.  I realize that I don’t talk about my faith often.  There’s a reason for that.  I don’t like to talk about things that I’m not invested in whole heartedly.  I still go to church every Sunday, and pray with my husband, but I’ve been feeling super disconnected.  I’m not saying that I have stopped believing in anything, I’m saying that I’m not going to run around quoting scripture to someone, when I’m not even reading the word.  You cant do things for Jesus with out Jesus.  Or, at least…its not a very good idea. 

Before this morning, I honestly couldnt tell you when the last time I sat and read my bible was.  Which is incredibly sad, but honest.  Penny has started waking up around 7 or later, so this morning I started waking up at 6am…for me.  My little alarm says “you need Jesus!!!” and that’s pretty hard to argue with in the morning.  So I bundled up (yeah…bundled…it was awesomely chilly this morning) grabbed some breakfast, and hot lemon water and sat on the patio for an hour.  Reading, journaling, quiet.  The introverts dream.  

There were no insane revelations had, or any sort of breakthrough in some struggles I’ve got.  But…it was good.  Brett and I have gotten really good at making sure we put time aside to be with each other.  Date nights are a flowin!  I think its just as important, however, to make sure to put time aside for ourselves.  Yes I am a parent, and a wife, but I’m also Katie.  I need time with my ladies, he needs time with his dudes…and I think more for me…i need me some quiet alone time.  Brett always offers a night up for me to go out with a friend, which i love…but i need solitude more than anything.  The more we find out how to balance all of this time.  The more we take the time to love each other, and ourselves.  I find…the better we love each other and our little one.  Whodathunkit?!

Hopefully I’ll top tonight off with a run, but no matter what, I know what I’ll be doing tomorrow morning at 6am.