We’re Moving…

This Saturday, actually.  Brett got a job in his hometown and we decided it would be a good move for our family for a while.  It’s a way to save money, for Brett to do what he needs to do, to have a job he wants to have, and for me to stop working full time and figure it out.

I’m starting my last week of work, and I’ve come off of a full weekend of “Good Byes” and…I’m a mess.

The thing that keeps running through my mind is…I wish I were better.  We had a small good bye party with some of our favorite humans on the planet and as I looked around at their faces I was overwhelmed.  At one point I said out loud…”This isnt making me want to leave, this is just making me wish we did this more.”

Its so easy to get caught up in life, and the amount of time we don’t have for things.  Which makes me wish, I were better.  Better at making time for the people I love most.  Sacrificing couch time and TV zone-age, for good solid relationships.  I have friends who live 5 miles away and occasionally saw each other.  It’s probably a pretty huge case of, don’t know what you got till its gone syndrome.  But, I’m feeling it.  Heavy.

As we pack up and head out for this next adventure, my biggest hope is that these plans of visits and weekend trips happen.  That life wont get too hectic in our new town, and that we’ll follow through on these plans.  I don’t want to say “we should get together!” and then never do it.  I want to follow through and shake of the flakiness of having your friends too close.  Relying on Sundays at church to get some face time in.  Blaming bed times, and long weeks for no hang outs.  I want to be intentional.  I want to be consistent.  I want to follow through.  I want to be better.

I’ll probably be updating this space more often and spending more time here.  Penny will be growing like crazy and I want to make sure I remember all of it.  I also have some big plans to build some things and paint some things and really figure out what I want to do.  I’ve always had to work full time and haven’t really had the opportunity to figure out what I want to do, or be, and I’m thankful that my husband is going to be working hard and giving me the freedom to figure that out.   I’m excited to see this blog, and hopefully creativity, develop more and I’m excited to share it all with whoever reads this business.

vivalaadventure!