I threw a pity party today…and no one was invited.

Just me.

Me and my self loathing.

Today was hard.  It was pretty rainy so we were stuck inside all day.  Plus Penny has a little cold, and well…I was lame.  I woke up knowing it was going to be a tough one.  I didn’t feel like doing any of it.  ANY of it.

I half assed my work out.  I ate all the carb items in my house, even though I’ve been killing the low carb game.  I laid on the floor trying to get penny to   “snuggle snuggle” while we watched Tinkerbell.  I tried to coax her into playing in her room alone, but that didn’t work.  I tried to do the dishes, but a GIANT spider climbed out of the drain, so that was over. Penny was whiney…I was useless.  It was a very bad day.

I wrote this little note on our chalk board the other day when I was super pumped on life and fitness and all the things!  And there it was…mocking me.  All day.  YOU keep going 2 day ago Katie…I’m going to see how many things I can do while laying down.

Brett came home for lunch and that gave me excitement for about 2 whole seconds, before remembering that I was exhausted and a bummer, so I finished that hour sitting on the floor zoning out and thinking about how dumb this day was and how many hours I had till bed time.

There isn’t really a huge point to this post, other than to say,  today wasnt so good.  That’s okay.  To quote one of our favorite movies…”They arent all diamonds”.  Today was hard.  I love my family, Penny is amazing, my husband is hot like fire.  I was lame today.  I want so badly for everything to be perfect.  To always have a clean home, yummy dinners, a fit bod, and a sun shiney toddler.  That is not reality 24/7, but I can try.  And if every now and then I have a day where I’m sort of the worst…well…we’ll get through it and I won’t be proud of it.  Then we move on.

We’ll try to be better tomorrow.

I better eat this ice cream before we do that.

Good night.